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I began to think, after tweeting this...that I might actually be able to draw a better picture of me and Paul in MS Paint if I put a little more effort into it. But there were some problems with that.
I've admitted before that I'm a bit sensitive about how I look. I'm short for a man, I have a very large nose and a very large Jay Leno-ish chin with a prominent mole on the right. I'm overweight, but the one advantage to that is that my nose doesn't quite stand out as much as it did when I was very skinny in my teen years.
But because of my looks, I'm shy about posting photos of myself in public, and felt extremely nervous about the idea of drawing myself as a cartoon character. I look like a real-life cartoon character as it is, and making myself into one didn't seem like it was the best idea.
But..I dunno...after I made that Onesie picture, I just really wanted to do it for some reason. We have friends on Yuku and Twitter who don't know what we look like. But Paul is photo-shy, too, and is scared right now to have pictures of himself online. So, I thought I could do a drawing with his permission. He said a drawing would be okay, so I just did this...
I can't tell you how nervous I was before I sent this to Twitter. I had a feeling I would regret it and have to delete the tweet. I know it's just a simple MS Paint drawing, but the whole idea of making myself into a cartoon struck a personal nerve with me and I wasn't sure this was what I wanted to do. And I was worried about my portrayal of Paul. Did I make him look too heavy? And I didn't want to get his ethnic features wrong, because it could be offensive. But he seemed to really like it, which made me feel so good I felt myself blushing, lol. I think, along with being a very basic idea of what we look like, it also shows our height difference.
So, now I wondered if I could improve from here. Maybe make myself into an even more stylized character. So, while we were up watching Saturday Night Live, I worked on this:
I originally drew myself wearing a plain shirt, but decided the space needed something there. I don't actually own a shirt with a taco on it, but lol, I felt it the best and most appropriate design to put there.
I emphasized my stature by making myself *really* short. Like I've said before, I am short, but not quite this short, but this will also make it easier for me to draw Paul's character and have us be drastically different heights.
I have my hands in my pockets because I was struggling enough as it is to get this to look okay, I didn't want to attempt hands just yet. Hands have always been difficult for me to draw and I wasn't ready to try it with a mouse yet.
Anyway...I was so scared of doing this, but the ironic thing is that I now actually feel somehow more confident in myself. I know it's not a great work of art, but seeing myself as a cartoon and the positive reactions I got to my drawings on Twitter has made me feel much more accepting of how I look. Like, yeah, I'm not tall, dark, and handsome. I'm more like a short, fat little gnome. But I can do something with this. I'm unique. Lol.
I suppose if I want to get more serious I could get a drawing tablet. I found one on Amazon for only $25.99, so they're not even necessarily all that expensive.
I'm going to send this topic to Twitter, so in conclusion, I want to thank everyone who gave me positive feedback again. You're all wonderful people and your encouragement and kind words really help.
"I'll probably never be rich, but I will be a fat man." - Louis Armstrong
Last Edited By: Agisuro Feb 12 17 5:30 PM. Edited 1 time